it seems like everytime i try to tell somebody something they feel the need to bitch me out.
im losing a friend for pointing something out to him.. he called me out on the same damn thing twice already. made my life a fucking hell for a few weeks.. so i change to make him happy... now when i try to tell him hes doin it he tells me "all you do in your shitty life is put people down. im not gonna sit here and take this shit from you fuck you im through with you"
another friend told me the same thing and i hadnt talked to him in a fucking week and i dont know what i did wrong.
somebody be honest with me and just let me know if my people skills really suck that bad because im done with getting bitched out over shit..
nobody wants to even listen to my side and actually take the shit in. i try to tell my side and it just goes in one ear and out the other and more shit seems to come up about how bad of a person i am.
i fucking hate people. im gonna live in the damn woods and go to the broken ass market that one person works at so i dont have to deal with people..
guess there goes my future plans for psychology when im older.. itd be kinda hard to talk to people if i cant seem to do it right.
even if it seems like im just ranting my nuts off, i want everybody to just take a minute when your arguing and try to see where the other person is comming from. when you and a friend are in a fight and neither of you are talkin just try to talk to them and find out why their mad.. half the time that shit happens where two friends are fighting neither of them are right in why they think the other is mad at them. it never gets solved by assuming.
im tired of people assuming and jumping to conclusions.. i know im not perfect but at least i make the effort.
well that was long but at least i got it out.. maybe itll help people out knowing that.. i just wish everyone would listen..
god people suck. high school is supposed to be the best years of your life but it seems like you cant wake up without running into more bullshit everyday..
im debating on giving up on shit.. the more i try to get my friends back the worse it seems to get.. it seems like im always the one fucking up in the situation.. even though i dont think it at the time it ends up like that.. should i just stop trying to make things better? i dont know how im supposed to change somebodys mind when they wont talk to me.
fuck. ill just go to school and get this week over with.. maybe something will click and ill know what to do.. | 
